Hi.I just want to give you a support. My problem was that I thought my mind is stronger than addiction and I could control it and quit it myself but the thing is… trying to deal with it by myself didn’t work. I kept spiral back to it and a year past. I put myself in so much debt and I know that it is something I can not do it alone and the stress that it cause me was too much. I told my partner the truth. Put all the cards on the table. He was very disappointed in me of course but he learned to understand that this is an addiction and it can not define me as a person. So We make sure that our both financials are in order, separately. I can not be trusted , not yet. We want to have a family and we want to have a baby. This is the only way I know how to protect my future child from me ruining our financials. It sucks and feeling like a big failure but I now seek helps from the addiction clinic, talking with therapist and consult with financial counselor. Everyday is hard but I think having my partner as a supporter is the biggest change for me to moving forward to get my life back and be away from gambling.
Stop chasing your loss. That what put us all in this horrible situation in the first place. I did stopped mine and I wish I stop sooner.