Thanks, IDI, Steve, Murrs and Monica.
Yes, Stephen, I need to accept the things I cannot change. Refusal to do so has driven me to gambling on many occasions. When I encounter issues outside my control, I lean towards something I think I can control i.e. slot machines and of course when I do, everything spins totally out of control and I feel as if I’m driving a car at high speed with brake failure.
I had a surprise/shock on Friday last. Something that I have no control over and cannot change. If I hadn’t already set December 1st as my new D Day, I would be gambling like billyo now but that won’t happen.
I actually tipped into a casino today on my walk from the car park to the dentist’s “to spend a penny”. It was the only toilet available in the area. I wasn’t testing or tempting myself. When I’m in the “non gambling mode”, I feel no urge to gamble. As I have always said it’s “all in the mindset”.
Steve, taking life back is not a walk in the park, but I guess we re discover ways of rolling with the punches.
Yes, Monica , gambling eats away at us , life a cancer but fortunately we can shake it off and avoid the terrible stress that it brings.
I hear you about showing compassion to ourselves, IDI, but in my case that needs to come in the form of “tough love”. I need to give myself a good kick up the khyber. I have been far too easy on myself and expected my hubby to bail me out too many times.
On a happy note my “win” has been cleared and arrived in my bank account tonight.
Time to start my Christmas shopping ( which I said I wasn’t doing this year but I will keep it very simple).
This week will be spent cleaning the house from top to bottom.
Next week will be spent putting up the decorations, visiting, inviting friends , attending church and going to the theatre to see “A Christmas Carol” -things I would not ever plan to do if my mind was set on gambling.
I might even muster up the courage to go to a GA meeting.
Watch this space!