Berber, I just want to say that I like your comment as it echoes many of my own experiences. I went to a group before that seemed to wallow in misery and all the people whose threads I’ve read are certainly not doing that … sometimes I just feel that I have to “keep it all together” and pretend that everything is normal … while I am “freaking out” inside as to where I will find the last few dollars to get the insurance paid (or whatever). The “relief” you mention is something I MISS … I am SO looking forward to someday being able to lay my head on my pillow and just be able to relax and fall to sleep … and rest. Sounds very good; hope I can get involved in that soon.