Hello Dg2018
I am reminded of my situation as I read your thread. The point of my recovery where I felt most proud, was when I had $1000 car repair dropped in my lap. I too had the urge to go “win” enought to pay for it…However, in this instance, I had not been gambling for over 3 months…I acutally had the money in savings to pay for the repair…Novel thought, don’t piss it away, and we have it when we need it….I still think it would have been fun to “win” it …but I guarantee, that I would have lost and probably still needed to have my car fixed…
Anyway, small victories, no matter how trivial help us in many ways…. This is a marathon and not a sprint!
Best wishes
Johnny B