we all want to believe we are better at controlling this addiction than we really are. Don’t be fooled this addiction is better at controlling us than we are at controlling it. Trust me and trust yourself . A few bets here and there will lead to bigger ones guaranteed. It took me a very long time to accept this even when I did believe it down deep. I just loved gambling so much that it was hard to accept I would have to get a divorce and never revisit this lover of mine.
Just this past Thursday heavy urges had set in and I had a internal dialog with myself for about 3 hours. I had gotten myself convinced to go. I could have called my hubby to come to my rescue but knew down deep this is where I must turn inward and call on my own strength . I finally had all the reasons why I shouldn’t go flood through me and began to change the conversation in my head. I then told myself I couldn’t go and that was that. I simply went home and felt powerful and at peace. I wasn’t going to tell my hubby about this episode but in the end I did tell him of what I had been through and how I fought through the urges and that i hope to continue to do so. You have the ability to do this too so try it and become stronger with every success you have ok my fellow cg. FG
