Glad to see you are still going strong on your journey! Relationships are tough! I’m not married but have been with someone for almost 10 years and she probably says similar things about me. If you aren’t happy then leave or ask him to leave and do you! Life is too short… If you love the person and think there’s something worth salvaging or saving then do that but ultimately in my opinion if it’s not going to lead to happiness then why keep doing it? Shame I didn’t figure that out with gambling for a long time!
Keep your head up feel proud and stay strong! Happiness awaits you with open arms 🙂