Conor I’m sorry to hear you gambled again. Please know you are not alone in this. As addictive gamblers we struggle to end on a high. Please delete your accounts or ban/block yourself now. If you can’t block yourself then put a depot restriction on. Trust me, I almost relapsed yesterday but couldn’t as I had banned myself from my usual sites and didn’t have my bank cards handy to deposit cash (I’ve put them in my husbands wallet). It was like I was a robot, in that moment gambling felt as normal as making a cup of tea and it enormousy of what I was doing didn’t hit me until I couldn’t do it.
Just keep asking yourself, “what would happen if you lost”. View gambling as never winning but only ever losing, we all know that after that initial perhaps innocent bet will lead to us spiralling out of control.
Please stay positive, keep coming back and reminding yourself why you need to stop. There is so much support on here. You can do this and today is a new day. Take care.