Day 1. Went to work, business as usual. Well, yeah, it’s kind of easy now, when I hit the rock bottom, as there are no money left. I know the challenge will come when the salary will be in my account. So far, I can say that it’s good to be busy, keeps the bad thoughts away.
Thanks everyone for the support, it’s good to know I am not alone in this. So far, I did excluded myself from the site where I used to gamble. I know that is just peanuts. I can’t afford for the moment to buy software like Gamban, or any other. I can’t talk to anyone, as I am quite alone, I have no friends (no wonder, after a lifetime of gambling). Around my place are no such things like Gamblers Anonymous. I feel kinda reluctant to go to a medical centre. Might cost a lot, and I’m not sure if the insurance is covering this type of things.
So I have to do it all by myself. I just need to find the right way, even though deep in my mind, some voice says it’s too late. All the time when everything was running well in my life, I was my one and only enemy, always hitting my head, just to ask myself afterwards, why I did it? What was missing there? And every time finding answers that sound like excuses: boredom, rage, lack of love, escaping from daily routine, and on and on…But I want to make it right. I hope I will succeed. Thanks again guys
