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Austin123
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The past few days have been a bit of a drag..I have been really low and hardly been able to push any work. I am not sure what is it, but I know that in times like this I am so grateful for the self-exclusion, because I would have definitely ran to the casino for some Adrenalin shot! So I will take this low moods over black jack anytime.

On Saturday I was invited to a 40th birthday celebration of a colleague..I was so looking forward to it during the week, but when the day finally arrived I was just not in the mood. So I stayed at home on Netflix the whole day.

On Sunday my mood still had not changed, so I took my family to a different church than ours. A more upbeat church..with live bands..surround audio and high projectors. I enjoyed it a bit, but they did not. But even that could not do the trick..I was still very down spiritually.

So today it is back to work I have been here for about two hours already, but i am still not in gear. I have just opened up my journal and realized just how much progress I have made in the past 28 days. Not only have i not played black jack for the entire month, I have spend so much time with my family, my marriage is well on its way to healthy status and I have made tremendous progress to improving my work environment..something I have failed to handle in the past three years.

So, I will take these low moods anytime, just to make these little advances that improves my living. It is hard but I have to stay strong..one day at a time.