[jackwilson]

It’s been a while but the urges are back in full swing. I’m thinking that I can make some of the money back. It’s causing me to be very irritable. I know that even if I deposit and win a bet, the outcome will always be the same. I CANNOT WIN in the end.

Usually what happens is that I have a feeling on a game, which I do right now. I want to tell myself that I will just make one bet and quit if I lose. I will win, and win some more and win some more. Then It’s out of control and I will lose everything, and then some. NOT GOOD. I must stay strong and will stay strong. I’m thankful that I closed all my online accounts and have no way of depositing money right now.

I’m staying strong!

Last bet: 7/30/14