I understand how you feel , Zero.
That is what gambling does to us.
It’s a curse from Hell.
It leads to despair and feelings of hopelessness.
Taking your own life won’t solve anything, though. It will make a bad situation even worse. Think of the legacy you would leave behind.
The future seems bleak when we are at a low ebb and we think everyone else has an easy life. That is not true.
Remember this
“All that glitters is not gold”.
No point in offering advice or telling you that “things will be better” when you are feeling so upset.
I would suggest that you phone the Samaritans to verbalize all you have written to a real person.
It’s an scary place to be.
I have been in your situation often.
Gambling solves none of Life’s problems.
Post again soon.
