[riverdaleboy]

Thank you female g for your comments As you say I have had this problem for many years now and it has caused me untold misery and it took some courage to admit to myself that I needed help because I could not bring it under control. I have put as many barriers as I can in place including self exclusion and closing various accounts but the temptation still lives with me constantly. I do not understand why I have not learnt by my mistakes but it feels like a burning in my chest when I force myself to stop or have to give up because I simply run out of money. I am very determined that 2016 will be different so I can start to enjoy life again. I shall keep posting to let you know my progress.