Have you been before to Gordon Moody?
I have heard its a great place to learn recovery and hope it will be just what you need to finally succeed at becoming gamble free.
I myself have set a goal to remain gf for 2016 as well. Along with many of the cg’s here who participate in the forum.
Try to participate in some of the support groups here as well they can be very helpful as well.
I see you have had this addiction for a very long time and I am not sure what that means in regards to recovery. I myself have gambled for 15-16 years now and of course it has been a progression for me and I imagine for most of us.
I have given a great deal of money to this insanity and have really learnt to resent the casinos for this.
I have had times within these 15 years where I played very hard and years where I either stayed away completely or went very little. I didn’t believe or rather choose not to believe I had an addiction. This was part of my issue, it has only been within the past year that i realized I truly am more than just a problem gambler. i only went 3 time in a 6 month period but spent 35 hundred each of those times. I had in the past and for some time put all the barriers in place so was doing fairly well until one day I discovered a way to access money at the casino that I never had used before and was in real trouble. That is when I finally faced my reality and knew I could no longer take chances with my future with retirement not far in the distance. I came completely clean with my hubby and that was very humbling. I t was enlightening as well because I learnt that allowing myself to be that vunerable enabled me to realize that I can get help and all I had to do was ask for it. I also tried to teach him about this addiction enough so that he would understand that recovery comes with ups and downs and that I would never again make promises I could not keep. I would suggest as others have to bring those into your recovery that you can trust and work every angle possible to recover. Lock down every barrier possible so that you haven’t got any access to cash and that should be your first effort to even try to beat this addiction. We all know money just becomes a tool to enable us to do what we will with in a casino. on line bookies etc. ” NO MONEY NO HONEY” until we can control ourselves we need to implement all the controls possible. I hope this helps. I am not usually so long winded. FG
