thanks Steev, Hambone and Seanraj for your comments. It’s nice to have a place to talk about this stuff where people have been there and understand.
I think I underestimated how hard it would be to stop. It sounds easy in theory – just don’t do it. But that’s not how addiction works. It’s hard work, every day.
I am going to my first GA meeting tomorrow night. Am nervous, but committed. I hope that being around other people who are dealing with the same problem will help me in my recovery.
Today I bought myself some new bedding and towels. Felt good to put my money to constructive use. It’s ironic that I struggle to spend money on myself but used to have no worries about wasting it gambling.
Working hard on not thinking about what I’ve lost to gambling, but thinking about quitting gambling as a win. I will be saving so much money by dealing with this problem. Have been tempted a few times last night and today, but am glad that I installed Gamban on my devices so gambling is not even an option.