It’s great to read your thread and especially how you are having the “what it leads to” discussion with your self before the gambling monster takes over. In the end, what is the result? We know that over time, no matter how “lucky” we are initially, that the house always wins, and it’s not even close.
Then there is the psychological damage it inflicts. Feeling that we must go back after a winning or losing session. Having every other thought and idea and well intentioned plan be pushed to the side so that we can get back to our addiction.
Good on you for thinking it through each time and making the right decision for 45 days in a row. It’s a huge temptation I’m sure working where you do. On the other hand maybe seeing so many people blow so much money every day after giving it up yourself perhaps gives you a new perspective?
Anyway, awesome job, you are an inspiration.