Good to talk on chat last night. I can feel your resolve to beat this. Yes the rational and irrational mind – fighting it out in your brain is annoying – but it does decrease in time, believe me. I tend to think of the irrational mind as my emotional (childish) mind – because that is the part that is rash and doesn’t think of the consequences of things.
I think there are a few OU people on here. I finished my degree some time ago, and I know there is someone here doing a law degree – hopefully she will introduce herself.
So in 2020 – make sure you get the support to kick gambling in the bin and enjoy a great gambling free life. I wish you well!