Dear diary,
If my family had made this wish that it is more important to them that I become a more caring, loving and more considerate person at home, more than me getting rich thru gambling or striking first prize in lottery, their wish came true this year by the Grace of God.
I can only write about the changes I saw this year different from the rest.
Someone at home who speaks very little to me is more comfortable talking to me more in conversation now. This is very important to me. I have disappointed and hurt my sister for decades. I made her feel unsafe in her own home.
Thank you God for everything you have given me, I have realize that God ‘s word in the Bible and the readings in the promises of the 12 steps recovery program was true.
Recovery is a day at a time program.
Too many self-inflicted tsunami have swept my life one too many times and changes everything suddenly because of gambling, no good thing last in my life in the past.
I need to be vigilant everyday now.
Is my action selfish and self seeking? Is my action hurting another person or self-destructive in nature? Can I give up my self-will and seek God ‘s will.
Everyday is day number one in recovery for me, not thinking too much about next year.
Next year is a wish for me.
My wish for this year has come true, this is the best thing and biggest reward I got in recovery. It was never perfect but was better than I expected.
This year has been more about consistency, stability and steadiness in recovery, more about giving and not just taking……
Recovery slogan: Seeking progress and not perfection in recovery.