Hello HD,
I’m glad to hear that you are reading the other stories here. You will no doubt have read some made by people who have been in a situation similar to yourself. There is life after gambling I promise you.
There is always someone to talk to when you are feeling low, as P has suggested talk to the experts. Check this link out as well
There is a lot of support out there.
Your family and friends have heard it all befoe? Ok then this time done give them words and promises. Give them actions. After all that has happened Im sure one of them would be delighted if you got your wages paid into their account. As you will be reading elsewhere, barriers help. What things can you put in place so that next pay day you can’t gamble easily or unaccountably?
When it comes to the debt that can be sorted. There are a lot of options around these days, from bankruptcy to repayment plans, with a lot in between.
One reason to keep trying? I could give you 100s I gambled for over 20 years and I can tell you that recovery is well worth the struggle.
Keep posting.