I want to add my welcome to you. It is good you have found this place of refuge, support and information and I’m glad to see you have already had wonderful replies from some great people, who have wisdom and understanding of what you are going through. No two situations are the same and we are all very aware of that, but we know that there are many common ‘themes’ in our stories and similar lessons to learn. Just writing out your thoughts and feelings can help, especially when you know they will be read with care and concern. I wish you well as you work through your particular situation with the support you need.