Hi All,
I need help and I don’t know where to go to get it. Its mum. Its me dealing with what is happening with mum. My sister said to me yesterday that she is no longer the mum we had, she has changed, she is a different mum now. My sister is right. I don’t know how to accept this or even how to begin dealing with it all. I don’t know how to feel, I think im scared to feel because if I start feeling then im going to fall apart and I don’t want to do that. Theres other stuff going on, something that happened with my sister on holidays that I cant understand. Our relationship has shifted, just a tiny bit but its not the same and that makes me so sad. I don’t know whether to find a counsellor. I don’t know what kind of counsellor to find. I am just ignoring things right now because I don’t know what to do. Im hurt and sad and grieving for the mum I once had, I don’t know what happened with my sister and cant move past it. I think im rambling but I cant even get the thoughts straight in my head let alone here. I cant go deeper than writing the words. Im too afraid. I don’t want to feel it. If anyone has any suggestions about who would be a good person to seek out I would be really grateful. Love to you all, K xxxx
