Your story seems to familiar to mine and I’m sure many others in here and I can relate to everything in your post. Vegas was my downfall and chasing losses got me in the hole. Started a business and failed because of my partying and gambling habits, all money would go to partying and gambling. I relapsed many times along the way , in Vegas my relapses were the worst, and then I would chase when I got back home and put myself deeper in debt. Lost gf of 5 years, lost another gf of 6 months. Lost my business, had to move back in with parents at 30. I can relate to everything you have wrote , of course my numbers were a lot smaller than yours but that is irrelevant , we have all felt the same pain, anger, disparity, hopelessness, mental anguish, sleepless nights, underperformance at work, broken relationships, lied, stolen, all to fuel this demon called gambling, the good news is there is hope and you have come to the right place. We are all here for you . I was told time after time on here if I want to quit, I really want to WANT IT BAD. People told me I was to be as addicted to my recovery as I was to gambling. I tried so hard, relapsing time and time again, chases losses, got them back, reset, just to lose them all again , over and over.. each time going deeper into debt. There is only so much pain we can take before we have had enough. Have you tried G.A. or one on one councilling. I find this to have helped me , but to each their own. The good news is that you are an entrepreneur, you know business. You know how to make $. You also know the casino is a business also that will ALWAYS, I repeat always win in the end. The wins are what messed us up because it was basically a loan from the casino to get us on cloud 9 thinking we can do that over and over to become rich. It’s false hope . The wins are worse than the losses, because once we lose the winnings, here comes the chase to get those back… and we will do whatever it takes like use the banks money which is not even ours. The casino has an unlimited bankroll vs our tiny bankroll.. the casino is not scared to lose anything, but we are. The casino will always have advantage, no matter how clever we think we are and how many times we win, we will always eventually lose in the end. I believe in you to stop, and by the sounds of it you are and will be successful in recovering from this with your business background. If you stop now, you will recoup you’re losses, you will get your peace of mind back, but this will take time and patience, and a lot of perseverance. It does get better, it will take work, but you can do this. We are all here for you and all have similar stories, you are not alone. Keep pushing forward and keep posting. It will help keep you accountable and will help let your emotions out to people who understand what you are going through. Take care my friend.
