Hi Andrea like all of the above C.G’S can relate to what your going through right now. I also started in the arcades when i was about 8 or 9 years old and i’m 51 . My wages are blown yet again and i am off on the sick . Unfortunately there is no quick fix or magic to make everything better right away. My advice is to get as much help as you can and see where it takes you also plan your payday because that is a major trigger like me for you. M.