Hi Bill
You can get through this with determination and courage. You are right that the consequences of continuing are severe, and probably wore than anything you can imagine but you are here now, accepting your addiction and hopefully taking responsibility for your debt, which is a big step in the right direction.
You do not have to earn more money to lead a more fulfilling life, you already have the power to live a better life, right there within you. Controlling an addiction to gamble takes guts but the end result is fantastic, you will be stronger and more empathetic, you will be the man you want to be, the man other will want to know. Controlling the addiction to gamble can be the greatest education. I am fortunate enough to know many who have learned to control their gambling and are living very special lives, more special, in my opinion, because of what they went through
Keep posting, keep going to meetings, you are being heard
Velvet