Yes, I remember you from chat, earlier in the week. Great that you have found the forums and I hope that reading through them has been helpful for you.
My only advice would be to seperate yourself from your “gambling” behaviour – and whilst you are fighting the behaviour, you are also being gentle with yourself, allowing yourself what you need to keep going.
I hope you can keep posting here and we will keep answering. Good to keep up the dialogue with you. Go well.