Hi Defeated,
Well done on looking for help.
When it comes to gambling then accepting defeat is actually a good place to be – it means we can stop fighting it, stop trying to beat the bookies/casino/where ever it is that you gamble.
Read the other stories here, you will see a lot similar to your own. You will also see the success stories – whata re they doing that you can apply to your own situation? Sad has already given you some good suggestions.
Keep posting and let us know what positive steps you are taking.