Well, its Christmas Eve here in the land down under, and I am organised.
In saying that, a quiet Christmas awaits, breakfast with Brea and the grandies, then home. That’s it.
Tonight we have a catch up with Dames family. He states to me last night that he knew nothing about it and he wasn’t going. He is going to ‘hit the couch’. Bah Humbug! (insert cross face here)
He has never been a fan, where as Christmas growing up was massive for me and I loved every minute of it.
Now, the kids have grown, thank goodness for the babies, mum is gone, and Christmas holds a sadness for me that I have never had.
But……I will prevail with my Christmas cheer.
We usually go away this time of year too, and the fact that we aren’t just makes everything just seem a little ordinary.
Damian is working, where as I have 2 weeks off, my practice closes over Christmas. I am planning on doing some much needed work around this house, but alas, my motivation is pretty much zero.
God, I sound like a grinch don’t I?
I feel lonely. More lonely than I have ever felt in my life. Even when everyone is home, I still feel it. Cant quite shake that feeling. Im trying, and hopefully tonight will pep me up a bit. You are right IDI, there is just what makes me happy…..unfortunately im not sure right now what that is, but with everything that has happened in my life I tend to move on quickly.
Anyway, what I really came here to say is that Christmas is HARD! There is no denying it. But for anyone that reads this post, and is either actively gambling or having urges, you deserve so much more than gambling is giving you.
Life is still crappy at times, but by God it is no where near as stressful as a crappy life while gambling. Give yourself the Christmas present you deserve, your life back!!!!
Merry Christmas to all my beautiful friends here, I wish you all happiness, health, good food and good friends, laughter, joy and love.
Love K xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
