Hi iknowicanquit
I love the positivity in your user name and its great to see the community supporting you.
A few organisations that could help
PAGCOR can help the players themselves deal with problem gambling through Exclusion Orders that ban persons from playing in casinos and other gaming venues nationwide. Pagcor Website
There is also a Gamblers Anonymous in the Philippines, id ring the Chairperson: Gerald / +639663315546
You mentioned a recent suicidal thoughts , it reads as if this really scared you and has given you the motivation to make a difference to your life. If these thoughts reappear please contact the Manila Lifeline Centre Hotline: (02) 8969191 or Hotline: Mobile phone: 0917 854 9191
Keep posting my friend, support really does help