Gambling Therapy logo

Welcome to the forum and well done for making the decision to quit. I take it that you had a long period of abstinence if you blew 12 months worth of savings? Yes, that is what us CGs do, we can never win. All wins end up as even bigger losses. Until we make the decision never to make that first bet. It is the only way to avoid more pain and suffering and a bottomless put if how far we can fall. Have you told your fiancé and self excluded? What did you gamble on?
You will find that you are not alone and the forum is helpful with support from fellow CGS working recovery. Are you getting any support at the moment? I would recommend you try GA or the groups on this forum. Where you are we have all been and understand the suffering it causes. Well done again for making the decision to quit.