The above is our official welcome but I just wanted to tell you that I had read your post and I appreciate how hard it must have been to write it.
I hope you will stick with this forum and learn as much as you can about your husband’s addiction because knowledge will give you power over it and help you to make informed decisions. Nobody should ever suggest that you leave or stay. It is my belief that given a short time here you will know what it is that you want to do and more importantly what the right thing for you to do is.
You don’t sound weak or stupid to me – you sound like a woman who is struggling to maintain her family in the face of a terrible addiction. In this forum living with that addiction is understood.
I would have liked to write you a more detailed reply but unfortunately I am away for the weekend. I will post to you again soon