Hi Jason
In my view, failures don’t ask for support and you have – that is a giant step, make it the first of many.
I hope you haven’t cancelled your date with friends because sitting alone with your thoughts will not help you achieve your goal. As you begin to recover friends are important – provided of course they are not talking about gambling. Do you have family to talk to?
Maybe I am odd but I think that 2 or even 3 years to clear debts is a drop in the ocean compared to the rest of your life, in control of your addiction and with your self-confidence and self-esteem restored. 32 is a good time to look back just long enough to survey the wreckage of your addiction but then it is important to turn to today, the start of the rest of your life. You can only deal with today Jason, nobody can ask more of you. Just for today fill your time with things that are not gambling related and then maybe in your next post you can report the things you enjoyed. There is always someone listening.
GA doesn’t work for everybody but here you can off-load the stresses of your life, instead of sitting alone thinking. Ditching your iphone seems like a good idea to me if you are determined to change.
Keep posting Jason, you are not alone and you can change your life; it is within your power and I wouldn’t be here writing to you if I didn’t know that not only can you control your addiction but you can live an exceptional life for having the courage and determination to do so.
Velvet
