Thank you for your post and well done to you on realising that the only way to win at this is to stop. We can never erase the past, but we can learn from it and what I have learned is that this addiction is sneaky, crafty and it does not want to go away, if I had a pound for every time in the past I had stopped and truly believed that to be true, I be a far wealthier woman than I am today.
I can’t really advise you as to what you need to do in your relationship as I don’t know the dynamics of your relationship. What I can say is this is a really difficult ‘secret’ to carry alone and I know that in order to be able to recover from it, you will need as much help and support as possible. It seems like you were an online gambler like me, do you have anyone helping you with blocking access on your computer?
Jenna, you said how can I expect him to still love me, you are not a bad person you have fallen foul to an addiction that you are now going to be doing your best to address, love is patient love is kind, you are still the same lady he fell in love with and you don’t just give up on someone who has a problem, but you do need to make sure that it is impossible for you to gamble on line so its good to get a trusted person to help you with that, because it does not just go away even when you are feeling determined to stop, well it never did for me anyway!
I will check out your thread Jenna, good to meet you.