You’ve done the right thing by being honest and open.
When we try to keep our gambling a secret we end up weaving a web of deceit which just puts us under more pressure. All the constant questions about why we never have any money to do anything or go anywhere just pushes us deeper into the gambling World. I used to panic if I had a social event on the horizon and didn’t have the funds to go. I always saw gambling as a way out of every problem I had.
Being open is painful and the initial reaction is to feel shame, but long term everyone will know your problem so the questions will stop and with it the need to lie to everyone. You’ll also get the support you need if you look for it in the right places. It really will be a weight off your mind.
Your story and journey is all too familiar. It was only 2-3 months ago when I thought I was unique and the only person to have been on this journey. This site has really opened my eyes and though I don’t wish what I went through on anyone else, it is comforting to know that I’m not alone. I can talk to people for the first time in my life that can actually relate to my experiences. Being misunderstood in everyday life can be the most frustrating experience and really used to send me to dark places.
Keep posting, you’ll get no end of support here and I wish you all the very best.
Charlster.