I read your post and was surprised because you could have been describing me. I have been in exactly the position you have been. I have even resorted to getting friends to pick up my post when I was at work so my husband would not see Bank statements. It is a horrible addiction . Yes it takes from us financially but also takes so much else from us..our peace of mind , the happiness in our relationships and homes, our self respect . You feel alone but every person on here can identify with what you have written. I don’t know why some people become addicted to gambling but I do know that we can stop and is amazing how quickly life seems to turn around once we have stopped. Keep posting Nacole. You have taken the first step and are on your way to quitting.