Hi Severusx, well done on looking for help.
It sounds like you have gotten yourself out of situations like this before and will do again. This time though you have acknowledged the problems and can continue to use support so that you don’t then just create another problem
Read the other stories here, you will see a lot of stories simialr to your own. You will also see the success stories, what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
Keep posting and let us know the positive steps you are taking.