Hi Sheena
I am so glad you have found your way to this forum, I understand exactly where you are coming from and I hope that maybe with sharing you can find some peace for you and your family.
Your post deserves more than a few lines written in haste but I wanted to let you know you were being heard and understood. Unfortunately I cannot give your post the time it needs as I have to go out now but it would be great if you could come in to the Friends and Family group tonight between 20.00-21.00 hour UK time when we can communicate in real time.
It will probably not be a large group and being a busy week it may possibly be just me – I will write again to you anyway but please don’t despair. The group is like sitting together in a couple of comfy chairs – very warm and welcoming. I hope to ‘see’ you.
Well done posting – I know how hard it is
Velvet