I hope you return to this thread as I cannot be sure that you are hearing from me.
Please start you own thread so that we can offer you the support that you deserve. Click on the Friends and Family forum page and scroll to the bottom, click on ‘New Topic’ , give yourself a thread title in the Subject Box and write your post in the square marked ‘Body’. Click on ‘Save’ at the bottom and your post will appear in the forum where we can walk with you for as long as you want us to do so.
I believe you will find your answer as knowledge comes with judgement free understanding and that is what we offer.
Speak again soon