I am concerned that I have put you off writing in the forum. It is only information that identifies your CG that it is inadvisable to put on the forum as we do offer anonymity to members in GH and on the site.
However this forum is for your support and I hope that all is well with you. Please post, as you can see you are far from alone and judgement free understanding is here for you.
Hope to hear from you and hopefully ‘meet’ you tomorrow evening in the group.