WOW! You have been through lot. I have to say I can relate to your posting – I often think if my husband had been thru a similar accident I might have reacted the same way – There is nothing wrong with you – I think when someone hurts you over and over, you suffer from “empathy fatigue” – you are so sick of feel bad for them and carrying them that at some point they are too heavy and you can’t do it anymore.. I relate.. I feel the same way..
You need to take care of yourself – I know everyone SAYS this but it sound like you are really sick. Without your health, you have nothing. So don’t worry about your reaction to your hubby or anything – you need all your strength. Breathe. Relax and heal.