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I cannot see any light at the moment.All I can see is darkness and it is scaring me.I cannot stop thoughts about ending my life, I am not about to carry them out but it is frightening me how much the idea that it would be better for my wife if I vanished, then she could find someone she deserved.seeing her day by day realise the extent of my deception is tearing my heart apart, I just cannot take it .its not getting better its getting worse.what help can she get to enable her to understand that the deception was not the same as cheating, although it might feel the same at the moment?
please, some help for her is needed, any ideas?