Thank you for your lovely post .
I really don’t know what happened and what I was thinking but devil took over me , I just don’t know how to stop , I can’t be trusted with any cards what’s so ever I know this now . Yesterday taught me that I will never beat this addiction I just have to eliminate everything in my life to stop me gambling .
This was the last card I had and recently paid a £1000 and no matter how much I told them to block the card cancel the card they didn’t so I am planning to call and tell them to block it firmly or change the card number as I know all the detail by memory .
I will need to make up that £400 in some way this is a horrible feeling .
I was doing so well I was very confident that I will not gamble maybe I was being big headed , I am a big headed idiot .