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kpat
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I only told a few people……
They probably have shared it with everyone else! My own sister, who is my closest friend told my sister-in-law, so now everbody knows. I told that lady at the play during Christmas and the other day at work one of my sales people had heard it from her.
I have to look at it like this, I am not perfect, they already knew that! I try not to worry about what other people think, but sometimes…..you can’t help but feel their judgement. It is a sort of accountability to me I think. If I fail, they are watching. It becomes another barrier. The people that love me still love me. The people that are self-righteous have their own issues to deal with and that is much worse than what I am trying to overcome. I don’t have to worry about them. They must never have liked me anyway. (Benefit of honesty: you find out who your true friends are).
I agree with Vera, you have to be selective, but there is really no such thing as a secret. Tell one, tell all! But you know, I shame myself more than any of them could anyway. I have to deal with what I have done, what I still want to do. They only have to talk behind my back. I would rather that than my face,.at least then I can pretend it’s not happening or what they are saying is kind:)