I understand what you are saying. Yes ga did work for me. And I did stay bet free, but I’ve lived with his problem for many years now and self analysed myself over and over again asking myself why? Before I would sit and punish myself telling myself I’m an addict, and I will be for the rest of my life and I must stay in ga for the rest of my life now. To some extent this I feel is true but I believe gambling is a symptom of something else a lot deeper and it relates to my lifestyle, emotions, relationships etc. I think it’s important that I look at this now, I’ve always knew this deep down and never done anything about it. I actully believe I used ga as a way of proving myself to others and not myself, and again yes it worked but it may be just a short time answer. I sometimes think we need to take the spotlight off gambling in some cases. Yes the gambling feels like a big thing right now because we are dominated by it but it’s the same alchohol is to an alcoholic. Suppose it’s all good saying this but I guess only I can change this. When I say I want control, it’s not about money as such it’s more about having control of myself. Right now I cant, I’ve proved that to myself. My family have control at this point, I’ve handed everything over but I have a goal that I can regain control of myself emotionally and mentally to be able to have this handed back to me..but that’s in the future. I just want to take a logical approach to this. Yes I’m a gambler, but I refuse to sit like I have done for the last 8 years saying “poor me I’m a compulsive gambler and I can’t help it” it’s not an excuse, I’m
Not sick. I just believe I need to develope and mature, while looking at other aspects of life. And this is all personal feelings and I do not think every problem gambler is the same. X
