Dated 22 November 2015 Sunday
Dear diary,
I do not have very high mindfulness and awareness to stop making decision when I am mentally very tired.
This can lead to bad consequences and regrets.
1. The tired mind sounded so convincing, and rational to me to do it when I check myself
2. The justification to go ahead sounded so right when they are not.
3. Letting go of control completely and let God becomes a challenge during this time for me when I start to focus and listen to my tired mind and not God.
It amazes me how my tired mind thinks it is ok and do not care too much about bad consequences, it is just very careless and irresponsible..
Look like a bad decision to trust a tired mind to do the checking
Best to do nothing now when the mind is tired and do the check when the mind is well rested
I should know better than to trust and let a tired mind take control of the final outcome good or bad.