Hi Lauren – you are not stupid at all, none of us are! This gambling addiction does not care how old/young you are, what colour you are, whether you’re a great worker or not, if you have a family or not etc. etc. it will attack anyone it can and will hold on relentlessly until we find the strength from somewhere deep down to shake it off!
I’m only just coming to the end of day 3 clean, and whilst I am still utterly devastated at what I have done, I am also learning a lot about who I really am and I cant wait to be that person again.
This disease makes us all do terrible things, I have lied, cheated and stolen from my own family. It’s something I will have to deal with for the rest of my life and never truly understand why I did it.
Please just look deep inside at the person you know you really are, focus all your energy on being everything you want to be when being a CG no longer controls you. You can do it, we all can – there’s lots of living proof on this site.
Sending you love and strength x