JayB,
First off all thanks for sharing, at 20 years old you are so very young and have your whole life ahead of you, I turn 39 tomorrow and have gambled since I was 14, over those years I have lost hundreds of thousands I dont share this to sound like a big shot I share this to let you know what happens if we dont stop, I rent my house, rent my car, have nothing of any monetry value, declared bancrupt in 2014, stole to fund my addiction, have escaped prison by the skin off my teeth…………I cant tell you what to do but while I activley gamble I become someone I am not……….a non caring person who doesnt care who he hurts while in the grip off this addiction.
You are so very young my friend so please think hard and change the path your life is heading down, 9 grand is alot of money but trust me it only gets worse, in truth I cant believe how little I spend when I dont gamble and as each gamble free day ticks by we quickly start building a better life for ourselves.
Take care JayB and I wish you all the very best in your life and recovery.
Maverick