Yes of course you will be feeling emotions. Gambling serves to keep emotions at bay – especially the ones we don’t feel comfortable with.
I felt lots of anger and regret at first. Mainly anger at myself for being so stupid. My father was a gambler, so I knew all about the damage it could do. Gambling has always existed, but like everything else modernity has found new ways of extracting the most from us. I used to get a pillow from my bed and pound it good and proper – pretending it was the gambling industry or a particular establishment. It usually felt good, cathartic – and sometimes brought up insights for me when I had calmed down.
Working with your horse will be good, great to get back to natural things instead of the unnatural gambling. Have a good Sunday and best St. Patrick’s Day blessings from Ireland.