Last night I had dreams of gambling, very real very strong dreams, this morning I woke up and since then have had major urges to gamble, I know what the outcome will be and I really don’t won’t to gamble but on the flip side I have really strong urges and won’t to gamble, I thought I would share and write it down so I can look back on it and understand.
I have just made sure this past hour I have no money and no access to any money, I have just gone to the shop with my boy and brought a nice peace of pork, I am back home now just started cooking the family a roast dinner.
Life is full of temptation and at times I am very weak, I have gambled all my life since I was 14 years old and next week I turn 39 so I understand I will be tempted at times but I just have to thing the whole outcome through, the only outcome I have experienced when gambling is pain, suffering, hurt, depression, desperation, and many more bad emotions for myself but also for the people around me who care.
Anyway I am a compulsive gambler but just for today I am going to try my very best not to gamble, thanks for listening and wish each and everyone of you all the very best in the world.
Icandothis thank you from the bottom of my heart once again for getting started back on the right road…..the road to recovery.
Maverick