Hi Strambolinski – you have been through a lot for someone of only 21.
I don’t know where you are from – but I wonder if you need to be looking for support locally, especially if you are not with your family and have nowhere to live.
It sounds as if gambling has taken a terrible toll on your life and you really need help to stop. Read around the site – there is plenty of practical advice and some of the threads on here I know will speak to you.
It may also be useful to speak to an adviser on the 1-2-1 live support service here, if you have not already done that.
Keep posting and letting us know how you are progressing.
I wish you well.
