Long days with no money and no car and sick and tired of being sick and tired finally got my appointment with the cnwl in july , making lots of plans everyday especially payday (danger day ). I can’t sleep , having those dreams all the time when you know your dreaming . It’s like being a prisoner in your own house , i suppose it’s better than the real prison i was in the infamous durham . Another 17 days until payday , 17 days of blagging it and feeling pathetic. To be honest i know i can do it but sometimes i’m thinking i can’t do this anymore , sorry for sounding so down about it all but honesty is mentioned alot on the posts on here and i’m just being honest . M.