Magclin, keep sharing and posting how you feel, this addiction can be so strong and at times there seems like there isnt a way out, we just have to keep fighting and working hard at beating this addiction as always one day at a time, focus on the good things my friend like your family……..I know it may be tough at the moment and trust me I know the web of lies and broken promises we tell to try and cover up what we have done, we can get better and life does get better trust me but it doesnt while we still have gambling in our life.
I wish you well in your recovery and life, from a fellow compulsive gambler, when I gamble I cannot stop no matter what……..thats why I must stay away from that first bet, if I make that first bet again I know I will lose everything because it has happened so many times before.
Hope you have a good gamble free day and look after yourself.
Maverick